absolute kaye*

because you have so much to do that you can't sleep well, or because when you finally can get some sleep there's so many things bothering you.

or even, when you try to have some pre-post-exam "fun" by watching the devil wears prada with your girlfriend by setting up cable to connect your laptop to your huge ass tv, it just doesnt work. you can either hear sounds or watch the show without sound. EITHER ONE AND NOT BOTH FML.

or you try to study but your body doesn't coordinate with your brain even after a cup of coffee and little bit of redbull. life is even bitchier if you thought you tried very hard to succeed, but your answer at the end of the day is 'its never enough'.

or when people you care doesn't do things your way. leaving you lying on the ground, feeling confused, unwanted and lost.

maybe it's the time of the month, or not.your body is trying to play games with you.....but i'm tired of games.

don't worry,i'm not emo. just another post in the name of "procrastination".

wasn't trying to abandon my blog but there's really nothing much to blog about recently. didn't feel like ranting much here because it doesn't solve the problem (duh) and didn't feel like having people's attention (emo -_-) also it doesn't really relieve the stress and annoyance as well. so...

oh btw, i got a tattoo.

from conversations like "do you think I should miss call him *blush*" or "maybe i should lie to my mum about going out with him" to more matured conversations like "where do you wanna be in 10 years time" or "what will you do if you find yourself pregnant at this age".

no joke. it really scared me(me iz innocent gal) how natural it seems to get questions like that.

few years later we're gonna have conversations about marriage and botox! fml. i'm so not ready for that.

no doubt that the answers in my head to all these answers changes throughout the year.

in fact, everyday i'm learning from them. not that i'm trying to imitate or even copy their style (at least i dont think so) but seeing the good thing they do makes me go "i wanna be like them" and seeing the wrongs they do makes me think twice if i ever have to set my foot in their situation. someone younger doesn't mean they're not as wise as yourself and they dont know how to think.

when someone feels sad, i feel sad too. i imagine myself in their situation and i never ever wanna see them act like there's nothing wrong because i know thats even harder compared to thinking about the sadness and sharing it.

what am i even talking about?besides anatomy now i need to study psychology too?!

predicted bad times,

we made right of everything that seemed wrong.

together,

we've been through laughter and tears,

and never, never gave in to our fears.

we made our own rules,

we fooled all the fools,

together.

love is full of disguises,

full of surprises.

-in spite of the odds by astrud gilberto-

<3

and now that she left i'm back to uni and the mundane stuff again. seriously the few days she was here i felt like i was on (self-proclaimed)holiday.

monday..................................

I just finished 2 of my mid-semester test today.Blehh not gonna comment much, all I can do now is get angry at myself lol. Really hope I can learn my lesson.

Yit dropped by Melbourne for a few days. Made me miss home even more! Dad's birthday is tmr and mum told me they're gonna have crispy pork for dinner tmr night. Gosh now I really really miss home.

It's friday and it's really just one of those fridays when nothing feels right.=\